galeanthropy is the proper term

i was thinking i'd diagnose "lycanthropy" in a patient, just to see if anyone took note. then i thought, no, that's too common. this person looks more like a cat. what would that be called? feline-anthropy? felanthropy? i googled felanthropy, and all i found were people who couldn't spell.

if i was a girl, i'd use "miss anthropy" as my gaming handle

mono no aware (alone and nescient)

break up - heart break

stunned silence, no mistake

cancelled plans, wasted wishes

blurry eyes, broken dishes

dont talk to me, for goodness' sake

let me dream, never to wake

break down - new low

chest heavy, mind slow

collapse defeat surrendering

memory re-rendering

resignation tendering

total shutdown, world of no

break in - what is lost?

papers strewn, drawers tossed

trust broken, lines crossed

self-loathing, unforgiven

recreated, changes striven

devil deal reeks of faust

break out - taking flight

desperate aimless through the night

hazards met couragelessly

unparalleled depravity

hidden from the garish light

longing still to have things right

break through - breaking dawn

yesterday now all but gone

tiny shards, remnant prayers

buried under new affairs

cracks oozing despite repairs

unseen beneath impressive brawn

break away - day all new

sky is shining, sun is blue

ear pressed close to far-off wind

search for whispers from a friend

secret heart murmurs true

(((i miss you, i miss you)))

+stealth

I'm strongly considering posting anonymously. At least for my poetry.

- It would allow me to elaborate and exaggerate with much less risk of repercussions. And while I'm thousands of miles away from these complications, I'm only about 5 seconds away from my phone.

- I just mean, not much comes to me "out of the blue." There's always some sort of connection. Oh mercy, this is just what I was complaining about the other day. These little threads that keep me tied to reality. Some days I feel that they vanish altogether, and that I'm drifting drifting drifting. It's no small wonder I always find my way back, eventually.

- It wouldn't decrease circulation, which is probably best characterized as "arrested," for all i know/care

But then, why "post" at all. Why not just journal if I wanna be all secretive about it? I have no good answer.

I wonder, if I became a musician, how I could write songs that were so personally revealing and part with them. I would hope very successfully...