But who may abide the day of His coming?

it was passing, transient, ephemeral. it was fierce while it lasted, and i thought i there wouldn't be an end of it, but looking now, the swelling's gone, and if my memory was poorer i'd wonder if it was ever even inflamed.

it's called atopy, and it seems to be involved in eczema, allergic rhinitis, asthma, and anaphylactic shock. basically, anything allergic. it hereditary, so it's part of a family history, just like diabetes, hypertension, cancer, and autoimmune disorders.

it is a hypersensitivity reaction that affects parts of the body not directly exposed to the allergen. in this way, the body is quite retarded. it takes a small signal, something rather meaningless, and amplifies it completely out of proportion. and while you can use antihistamines and steroids, the best thing is to avoid the stimulus entirely.

palpitations, anxiety, insomnia, chest pain
i had pericarditis last year (no, not from atopy. i'm done with atopy, unless i talk about limerence or Flow, which happen to be things i know quite a lot about, strangely enough. ok, not strangely. i dont throw out big words or concepts like that unless i'm trying to make links. what, like i don't know what i'm doing here? please. if i may remind you, this is mostly a logbook for myself, an encrypted black box, so of course it will be, at times, impossibly obscure. the purpose of my writing is to remind myself of things. there you go, the organization's mission statement. wind tape).

i had pericarditis last year, which i suppose is much better than carditis, because the heart itself isn't infiltrated. not that it can't be complicated. the major problems that arise are pericardial effusion (which can lead to tamponade), fluid that accumulates between the heart and its soft shell that applies pressure to the heart externally, impairing it's ability to fill, and constrictive pericarditis, which also is restrictive, but by way of thickening of the casing, not fluids.
mine wasn't exciting in any of those ways, and the cause probably was viral, or post-viral, probably (non-infectious causes are much less likely in my case). no big deal. hit the NSAIDs hard for 2 weeks, and hope i don't end up with adhesions (fibrous attachments) though even those aren't very remarkable (no long-term sequelae).