familiarity

ahh test week. as abusive as ever. i've had difficulty concentrating, so i'm considering recycling. how illegal is it to publish bits from a personal letter written some time ago? is there some sort of expiration date? the note was written more recently than when i started blogging (two years ago. good grief i'm old).

friend rankings (low to high, based much on the things you share (i think. this was some time ago)):

fire drill friends
festival friends
facts friends
food friends
fallback friends (faute de mieux)
favorites friends
feelings friends
fears friends
fast friends
fairy-tale friends
finality friends

something i noticed from reading my old writings (a literary analysis of myself!) is that usually when i wish to present an idea or joke i'm uncomfortable owning up to (for various reasons, but usually the inherent tactlessness of whatever i'm wanting to say), i usually allow an alter ego to present it. i achieve this mainly by letting opposing voices (presumably in my head) engage in dialogue. in doing so, i save face by having one of my personalities play it straight and uphold duty and morals and all that. the other deviates as he pleases. consider:

[modified from the end of a cheer-up note]

"but at least you're not dead. so there's your solace.

jw

{{yeah, you're not much of a comforter}}
{what does that mean?}
{{you're no good in bed}}
{remind me never to let you talk to girls}"

so yeah, i think it works out pretty well for me.

for all of you in my class who are studying psychopathology and suspecting an auditory hallucination from an overactive limbic cortex, rest assured. there are way more than two voices in my head. i just screen out the bizzare ones, sometimes. enjoy your meal.